annyong^^
hi EvryOne \(^_^)/ !!!!what r u doing right now?....ummmm????? i'm stiLL can't sleep right now, so i wRote somtHg here coZ so long tiMe i didn't post somethg here....
lately i relize abt my life changes since my age increased...i feel the pressure adult alwys talk abt. somthg tiMe i feeL liKe i can't stand abT it anymore buT i keeP telling myseLf thT i sHLd be StroNg in wHt situation i faCe now. until noW i duNNo wHt my life will be, i still jst stay at HoMe n waste my time wiTh watch TV n playing computer....but thT whT aT otHer person eye look at me, in other side, i try hard to find somethg meaning i can get n do. i know i reaLLy hard persoN to accpt somethg..coz of my behaviOr evryOne alwys mad at me.....whT i can say, my familY reaLLy can't undrstnd me weLL espcLy wht i reaLLy can do. yup i know, someoNe who can't listen wht parents told, is a worse person.........bcoz of tht, i alwys hide my sorrow. i don't undrstnd my sister also laugh with wht i really interested n keep involved in tht. wht i know in thy r eye, thy thg im someone weak, dffrnt thn them.....im totally dffrent thn them right....but i really thankful to them...coz of tht, i keep try hard to show wht i interested now nothg useless...
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
who yor frienD?
annyoung~
do u relized who someone u call FRIEND acctually?....but for me, i belived on them who the person i call FRIEND in my life, i also belived they will not betray me anymor, evn i alredy feel when our best friend betray use. wen the person i belived do tht, i almost gv up on my way to be someone be loyal with friend n be nice to the person name FRIEND. evrydy my tears fall like a heavy raining day, evn i try to stop the tear, the tear never listen to our command, and our heart also feel like stabbed by knife. when im in ths situation, i finally found someone really can mak eme relief, evn fro a first time i still feel worry and scared to start a new friendship but i knw i shld face it's one day...the person absolutely different from the way i stand, but smile,laugh and tears the person hv n i share, suddenly change my way to gv a space...n i try to hold it as i can, but agn, the happiness we hv not same like can stay longer..i start learn hv to appreciate someone call FRIEND which i choose to not let the person hurt more evn hv alot rumors comes, i still support the person from behind...bcoz of ths, i still can be with the person until now.
our life same like circle n also not as easy as we tought, day by day we will face a new life waiting for use...in second stage, our life be more challeging. on ths time, i also worry to face it, coz im jst let myslf stay in one place n nvr wan to upgrade it. but the situation n experience i face, show me n teach me. i can't stand if i jst alone in the world, it's hard for me to accptd new person as my friend, mny thg i worry abt if i wan find new person in my life. frst i will worry abt 'can someone accptd me in ths way?' 'i thy look at me n think abt me?', all the question keep playing in my mind. and the end, someone who i hate the most n alwys feel like the oerson so annoying, be my friend. bcoz i didn't wan upgrade myslf as well as i can, i alwys hv alot negative thinking abt someone, n wht i can do jst treat them in the way who i am. be rude,shouting n also jst following my heart n not thinking abt another feeling mk me more strong. the most thng i start to hate on ths time, is a tears..i dunno how mch i hate tears. wen someone cry, i start feel mad n gv mny excuss to avoid thm. the sad story thy hv, also mk me don't stop irrated. all the negative thg start control myslf...it's same like i didn't belived in othr person. wen someone come to me, i dunno how mch strong the person to face myslf like tht, try to undstnd me,talk in polite to me n also helping me alot. to cover my true feeling i pretend like don't care wht thy do, i dunno wht in thy eye look at me. since the person start know me well, i agn start worry,worry abt thy will be knw abt my past n my real self. agn i be hard in my way....coz the person like tht, i end the end gv up on myslf, n slowly start to accpt the person n mk a promise. until now i will be like u knw me, but i dun wan revealed my way,heart,mind n soul to othr person like tht..
do u relized who someone u call FRIEND acctually?....but for me, i belived on them who the person i call FRIEND in my life, i also belived they will not betray me anymor, evn i alredy feel when our best friend betray use. wen the person i belived do tht, i almost gv up on my way to be someone be loyal with friend n be nice to the person name FRIEND. evrydy my tears fall like a heavy raining day, evn i try to stop the tear, the tear never listen to our command, and our heart also feel like stabbed by knife. when im in ths situation, i finally found someone really can mak eme relief, evn fro a first time i still feel worry and scared to start a new friendship but i knw i shld face it's one day...the person absolutely different from the way i stand, but smile,laugh and tears the person hv n i share, suddenly change my way to gv a space...n i try to hold it as i can, but agn, the happiness we hv not same like can stay longer..i start learn hv to appreciate someone call FRIEND which i choose to not let the person hurt more evn hv alot rumors comes, i still support the person from behind...bcoz of ths, i still can be with the person until now.
our life same like circle n also not as easy as we tought, day by day we will face a new life waiting for use...in second stage, our life be more challeging. on ths time, i also worry to face it, coz im jst let myslf stay in one place n nvr wan to upgrade it. but the situation n experience i face, show me n teach me. i can't stand if i jst alone in the world, it's hard for me to accptd new person as my friend, mny thg i worry abt if i wan find new person in my life. frst i will worry abt 'can someone accptd me in ths way?' 'i thy look at me n think abt me?', all the question keep playing in my mind. and the end, someone who i hate the most n alwys feel like the oerson so annoying, be my friend. bcoz i didn't wan upgrade myslf as well as i can, i alwys hv alot negative thinking abt someone, n wht i can do jst treat them in the way who i am. be rude,shouting n also jst following my heart n not thinking abt another feeling mk me more strong. the most thng i start to hate on ths time, is a tears..i dunno how mch i hate tears. wen someone cry, i start feel mad n gv mny excuss to avoid thm. the sad story thy hv, also mk me don't stop irrated. all the negative thg start control myslf...it's same like i didn't belived in othr person. wen someone come to me, i dunno how mch strong the person to face myslf like tht, try to undstnd me,talk in polite to me n also helping me alot. to cover my true feeling i pretend like don't care wht thy do, i dunno wht in thy eye look at me. since the person start know me well, i agn start worry,worry abt thy will be knw abt my past n my real self. agn i be hard in my way....coz the person like tht, i end the end gv up on myslf, n slowly start to accpt the person n mk a promise. until now i will be like u knw me, but i dun wan revealed my way,heart,mind n soul to othr person like tht..
Friday, May 6, 2011
NicE if u understand~ ^^
annyong~~again i back to my blog, i miss it alot~~~~ kya~~~~
i dunno y i still not prepared to join worker world, haiss, evn half of my frnd whc alrdy done a study with me going do some job before them going to continue study. i hope i can doing something meaning to me since im done from study, but im still like a child, stuck in my world, n also doing wht i wan. the most sadder is, wht i do alwys same like a ridiculous in other person eye..hais...i dunno why im like tht, tht im really a weirdo..aigoo~
oh ya, lately, i jst try my lucky to sent all my writing story...and i got so mny respond, some of them gv a good comment and some of them not, for all the comment them gv somethg a good thng in mylife, evn im not a good writer but i try my best to do it, cz i really interested in writing, i share the story i create...
really a nice thng wen someone gv a respond to the wht 100% made by u right? nice!!!! i will keep going improve my skills n wht the responder told me, i will take it as my guide to do somethg more better!!!TQ!!!TQ!!!!TQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
whY i can'T conTroL it!!!
annyoung~~~ 
today is Sunday...and i just sit infront my lappy now, nothing to do....haisssss~~~ i hope i can quickly finish my car lesson and get my lisence!!!!! after that, i hope i can get a job to!!! i think now, i have a lil bit confident to join into working world...even before i still don't have any confident to involved in this world...but now, i though...i can....if i have no chance to trying involved into working world on this time, i hope i can continue my study again....that my last chance, and after finish my study again, i can seriously involved into working world!!!! my world lately full with my fantasy....i can't stop from type a new story and edit the video...
.....i dunno how to stop my addicted in this world....
i can't do anything to myself to...i can't control it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today is Sunday...and i just sit infront my lappy now, nothing to do....haisssss~~~ i hope i can quickly finish my car lesson and get my lisence!!!!! after that, i hope i can get a job to!!! i think now, i have a lil bit confident to join into working world...even before i still don't have any confident to involved in this world...but now, i though...i can....if i have no chance to trying involved into working world on this time, i hope i can continue my study again....that my last chance, and after finish my study again, i can seriously involved into working world!!!! my world lately full with my fantasy....i can't stop from type a new story and edit the video...
.....i dunno how to stop my addicted in this world....
i can't do anything to myself to...i can't control it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
trouBLe,TrouBle~~~
annyoung.....
everyone, do u feel stuck sometimes with your life?....um, i think i in the middle stuck with my own life now....why i say like that...coz, i already confius about my life now, i dunno which the right path for me now, do i should give up with my course i'm already learn in 3 years or just forget it and start with the course i most like want be....i realy dunno what should i do now, coz sometimes i think, what i'm learning in the course i'm already finish it, some a good thing for my future..but wen i doing my intersting thing in my life, i start to feel down and i really wan doing the thing. does anyone feel something like that to?...argggggg!!!! i dunno to handle this problem, what should i do now!!! what!!!! i wan think positif about that, but sometimes something distrub my positif thinking...oh no...again im fall....TT___TT
everyone, do u feel stuck sometimes with your life?....um, i think i in the middle stuck with my own life now....why i say like that...coz, i already confius about my life now, i dunno which the right path for me now, do i should give up with my course i'm already learn in 3 years or just forget it and start with the course i most like want be....i realy dunno what should i do now, coz sometimes i think, what i'm learning in the course i'm already finish it, some a good thing for my future..but wen i doing my intersting thing in my life, i start to feel down and i really wan doing the thing. does anyone feel something like that to?...argggggg!!!! i dunno to handle this problem, what should i do now!!! what!!!! i wan think positif about that, but sometimes something distrub my positif thinking...oh no...again im fall....TT___TT
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