i waN TO kNoW....

my hearts stop, i cant breathing anymore....coz u leaving me.....

some word i heard make me think it alot...hummmmm, how it really feel? aftr a while ago..i think it back...wht really i feel inside???? that really love? or just feeling of take care????? i wonder....if i cant do anything right now wht i shld do??????

my heaven posmen.....do u know wht inside my heart acctually??? i wan to know....

love? somtimes i ask myself...what kind of love i really hv right now...for me, wht i know, my love just for my friend and my lovely family(kikikikiki)....yup i can't deny it, where i really love to be with my friend..as i can say...my friend is a everything to me....usually, my boy friend really can understanding me easily than my girl friend...i didn't mean to say that i didnt like all my girl friend....im really love all my girl friend deeply..coz i can understnd all they feeling,i like heard everything they wan told me, i will be a good listener towards them, coz girl really hope they have someone can share everythin than they own special boyfriend(hahahaha), so tht's why i still feel tht they still need me as they own friend...n someone can give her support....^_^
oh ya,abt my boy friend, myb they think the way i talk,walk and my attitude, sometime its didnt same as a another girl....i mean the girl who can speak nice, polite and still can serve than as a girl T_T...but its didnt mean i should sad abt tht, acctually i lil bit happy abt tht, coz i can easily communicate with guy friendly and i can know what kind a guy like, didnt like..n everything..yup, im really involved in my boy friend activities and the way they think abt something...ummm, tht's why, im easily can free to talk and free to do everything in front my boy friend.....O(^_^O)

because of that, some of my boy friend worry alot abt how i can fall in love with some other guy one day, if my behavior like that?...but i still didnt think abt to fall in love easily like that...my heart to love someone deeply like that myb alrdy close...(hohohohoho)..coz love to someone deply like that just can gv u strunggle, hurt and worry...so why i should let my emotion be like tht????!!! oh noooooo~~~~~~ i still wan a freedom....but its ok if u wan me as a friend....d(^_^)b

love.love,love...ummmm, myb its a sound great to a someone and someone will imaging anything like a fairy tales where the prince and the princess can dance together,and will protect each other..eeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~~ yupp..to imaging it with someone i like such as, Jung yunho and another korean star or japaness star,ummm its ok, but really to think abt that to another person....haizzzz...i can't...sometimes my friend ask me, why i didnt wan be in love? do u have nightmare abt love story? do u hate guy? do u love girl? do u really need a rich guy only? and so on....i just can smile and pretend that everything is right....what i should do?..but i think if i fall in love , i will be shy, didnt much talk and just listen he...that what i think....myb..but i really dont wan be like that..its enough if someone know me as who i am...where he know the way i laugh,sad, and happy...hahahaha
but the person like that really exist in the world anymore??hummmmm.....dunno....so just keep belived on yourself ok....and to all my friend...i will let all the love between us will

im wan To Say....

to my heaven posmen......
thanks to help me find my happiness way, i didn't know, which the way i choice its the wan i should hold? or just for a while....i hope i will never erase them easily..even just can smile for a while with them like this....help me to hold everything until i close my eyes one day.....

the love i have btw them, its enough for me right now, coz i scared to find another love from other person and other way, so if someone can open my heart back to love someone, i think the person really amazing...hahahahaha....so work hard ya!!!

chingu, neomu kamsahamnida, to be here with me....kamsahamnida~~~~~

FLyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~

i love the way i stand now, coz lil bit i can run,walk, laugh n smile alot...i didnt feel the strunggle wht i feel before...i dunno, who, when n where i realize all the thing come to me....n to my family..thanks alot who alwys gv me support until i can stand like ths...kikikikikiki....

to all my prenz i know..tq, coz of u, i learn evrythg now....i know how to show my feeling.... so i wan say to u, can u feel my heart bit?(hahahahaha)

i think, i can stay in the situation i hv now....its enough now, if i can undrstnd them rite? coz i knw who thr r......even behind thm i can't c wht thy hide...but i feel peace to stand like now......

ring ding dong,ring ding dong....dunno wht to write now...so i end here......!!!