HurTinG me

i wan say gud bye 2 u my dearest buddy. i scared 2 face a painess anymore. even i say the paines for a thousand time, u will not feel it. u must found new happiness there. congratulation, finally u found the person could make your heartbeat fast right? i really wan wish it by my mouth , but i could now. see u like this, i'm really fine now. have a wonderful life my buddy. i dunno why i remove u from ma friend list at my FB, i'm so sorry. i hope u notice it and i hope i can fix ma trust and ma friendship with u again. why i doing this??? i hate maself alot!!! i just become more envy person looking how well yor life since we didn't get closed anymore, and i being someone more cruel 2 other sometime. so please stopping me!!! it's hurting me alot... gud byeee~ dun give any excuse if u forget something about me anymore, i'm will trying 2 understand everything. i will...

The StuPid ThinGS

sigh, sigh and sigh!! sometime people can be so stupid right? like i say befor, i could understand myself. the day i told that person to make someone else happy, i really can't do it. on that moment 2, i really understand the real painess even i has done something like that before. tears just make me more sad, also look at that person pic. my heart so hard before, but i dunno how easy my tears waste for that person. i trying to ignore what that person doing and also trying to forget memory i have with that person. WOW!! because of this, i just fallen in sick (2 day got fever and 1 night my heart feel so pain until i cannot sleep). i thought i already let everything go, but i dunno in my happiness the face and the way that person treat me just pop-up in my mind. that person know how much worse i treat that person and how much i hurting that person, but i really can't found anyone like that person anymore. i just control myself as i can when i with other. i'm also a bad person cause i didn't trying feel something like that to other closed person, which also become the first person glow my life before that person. i konw i doing a mistake here, but im really sorry i cannot hold the painess. after i feel like i should settle everything well, that person really far from me now. i dun care if someone call me stalker, but i just care when i see u didn't doing something so hard like me. your happy face, your thought and the way u talking about something. did u know, i just don't dare to doing anything like update my status in my mini homepage? i really worry if i hurting u again there. i scared since i didn't has a time to met and stay with u like 3 years we spent. i scared 2 forget important day of u 2, but i know that person just far and far again. i didn't hope something from u on my important day, but little bit in my heart, i just search u 2 hear something. see, i just regret everthing alot now. i hope my cool hard just back like before, i hope i could forget everything now. sometime i also thought, if i have a super power, i wan destroy u by my hand! and wen i see u destroy, i can disappear with wind. aish!!! i wan have some super power which i could ride out of u from my life now!! i dun wan be like now!!! #HATE #HATE MYSELF