oNe beTTeR daYYYY~~~~~

annyong~~~~ wahhhhhh~~~ i jst ediT my bloG wiT neW pic...like iT,liKe it!!!!!!! welCOme,weLcOmeeeeeeeeee~~~~

thiS abT mY preNz

aNNyoUnG~~~~~

ummm...dlm DuniA ni mG xNafiKan sO maNy tYpe oF persON...sO in thS siTuatiON..kiTe gAk aKn MeneRimA PlBg RinTAngaN iDoP ni Ha...buT i DuN waN taLk abT thS...buT soMetHg moRe ImporTanT...

FrieNd..stP oRG aKn adA oRg yg NaMa mc ni lAM iDoP Kan? cuMe yg m'bEzaKn adLh kWN ms suSaH n SeNang.....buT bG sY, sY seDaR mcne poN kwN kiTe tu...we sHouLd accEpT it anD thiNk posiTiF...anD onE moRe tHiNg iM reaLized...dLm p'JLnaN idoP kiTe ni...kiTe bLh ckP 'u'r my bsTprenZ forEvR' kat mn2 kwn kite je kan...tp hkkTnye...bila atR kitE mula piliH jLn idoP yg B'bz...kiTe aKn meeT wiTh a new persON...thE new PersOn absolutely lah someoNe yg kitE naK kene kNL diri die lu aNd evrytHG rite? it's to hard to do..and somEtimEs its taKe a few timeS... so sb tu gak la pd ms ni kiTe akN terBisiK..'haizzz....susah tol nak FhM die ni..' 'pe die suke agk nye? kalau sy buat ni die suka tak?'....and myB pelBg lg soalAn akN kuar kan?...but honestly...somEone whO knoW me anD wan me be a prenz...usually had a Hard timE DLm ms yg sM gak xsmstnyE bL daH Ad kWn baRu kiTe luPekaN kWn lama kan..ish,ish..xmungKin...uTk pgthUaN smU kwN laMa of cos sntS adA laM memOry n diRi kite...buT susaH nK fhM...dLm fkRn org ni..byK ngt yg die fkr kan?...bG sY kwN adLh kwn..anD cuBe la fkR idoP tnP kwn..sO hard ok...

apaRt froM tht, kite pon kene sdr yg kwn kite akn pny tngjwb bg kwn bru yg die knL gak kan....so biLa wjD kefAhaMan anD k'prcyaAn laM idoP die d'atr kwn2 tu yg menyeronokkaN......oh ye, sy plG xsuKe orG yg sLu sLh anGGp saL reLatioNshP btW word Prenz..xkire kWn atR pompuAn n bOY...usuaLLy bL kwN kiTe Boy..msT sOmeOen btw dORg aKn staRt Like doRg nyE kwn.. bnd mc ni berlaku bL sLh sorg muLa rs yg die ni JnS yg sgt2 fhM dia aNd eVrytHg yg diE waT diE daH laH FhM...sO sBnR pkR mc Ni srG jD kan....msT susah bL naK berDepAn aTr saTU sm leN lpS tu...
perShbTan yg sGt menaRiK sY utK MiLiKi adLh mc prshBtn aTR laKi n Laki...coZ looK niCe..btW tHem..sO fantastic...bL doRg gado, doRg aKN gAdo n laM ms yG sM dOrg akN bLh beK nGaN cpT..aNd Bl dorG caRing eaCH otHer mG dOrg xTnJk buT leH fhM espcLy mC daK2 koRea hahahaha....so aGn mTk mf pd KKwN yg prH knL diRi ni coZ sPnjG bKwN cR sY mg aGk menaKutkan..bt pe tkOt kaT sY..tu kan SmU uJian...kakakakaka esPcLy thE perSoN naMe SuhaiLa oMaR
kiTe gaK kene bYk cR naK mSK ngaN kwn2 kiTe ni...coZ tO JaNa JaaFar mY cuTiE PreNz..wakakakaka~~~ sY UsusaLLy B a GooD liStening tOK diE..coZ Jana is Jana

wah,pnjG lak tertaiP ni ha...so -END- aNd pe Yg sY nak CKp sMU kwN sy adLH yG terBek n sLu beri pElbagAi coLourFuL in ma LiFe LiKe a fiRewoRk!!!

mY sweetY piE PrenZ

hOpE wHrVr u aRe....wE nVR loSe ouR coNNecTiOn.... Q(^_^Q)*hwaiting*


laSt dAY PaRty...... T_T witH thE persOn wHO alWys Gv a SuppOrt aNd GuiDe tO mY FinaL poRejCT~~~



mY houSemate....tHe besT houSemate aNd tHe PerSOn whO gV me a COuRage...
eveN i alWys shOw a Bad aTTituDe aNd gV aLL a HarD tiMe..wE alWys hoLd aNd beliVed eaCh oTheR...coZ tHe swEeT loVe iN eaCh OtHer HeaRt rEaLLy DiFFucLt ThG tO ReaCh...esPcLY mE...THe PersON DuNNo hoW tO shOw reaL LOVe TO u....T_T


i LoVe thS GiRL she MY beSt PreNz i Hv iN my LoVe..eVen wE gO in dFFrNT waY wE sTiLL caN reaCh eAcH oTher..ACtLY ouR fiRst meeT soMetHg a MisTakE i DidNt thougHt thaT i caN be her friEnd...i reaLLy loVe aNd missed her aLot....yup we jsT LiL piC tO kEEp...buT iN my MinD aNd mY memOrY aLRdY fuLL wiT u faCE,SmiLE ANd anYtHg...sO iF somEoNe asK me,wHy i jsT hV a LiL biT yoR pic...i caN anSweR wiT smiLe aNd ProuD aBT u my DeaR~~~ u alWys b a speciaL persON i KnOw iN my liFe eVn we alWys meeT dffcLt waY aNd meeT thE perSoN whO hatEd aNd JeaLOuS aBT ouR reLatiOnshiP...wE aLwsY BeLiVed and hoLd bacK eCh oTheR riTe.... OuR moMenT toGetHer sO preciOuS... saranghae chinGu~~~

CheK 1,2,3.......

annYOuNg!!! ^_^

im just finish edit my BLOG!!! yeahhhhh!!!!!! wah, so fineeeee~~~~
hummmm....whT i wan Do ya...xde Pe yG sY naK waT k'blkGan niE..NaK ShAre sToRy pON xDe StOry....


chek,chek, 1,2,3....im out~~~

LoSinG mA MiNDDD???!!!

AnnYOnGGGG~~~~ (=^_^=)

WaHHHH...TaK sGke Ms cPt tOL b'LalU...saAt sY b'SerOnOk n B'sM kEkaWan SuDdeNLy StOp...But i HoPe i WiLL noT LosE ConTacT wiT TheM eaSiLy... Q^_^Q
buT sY cOnfiUs pE lEh sY bT skRg Ni...SY aD ImPian Yg sGt tinGGi tOk d'LakuKAn bUt sY RsU KLo iaNya XterCapai...OH CheBaLLLLL!!!!

tO ma heAVen PoSmeN...Did u KnOw WhT i ShLd dO NoW? iM ReaLLy LosE ma SiGht TO dO whT...aiGoooo...sY HrP sY dpt waT pKr yG b'MkNe dLm mS skRg ni...Or sOmthG Yg Leh M'BntU ProSes m'caPai ImPiaN sY ngaN CpT..BuT nK waT Pe??? aRgggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!! ReaLLy LoSe ma MiNd NoWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

cOntAc me As SooN as poSSibLe ma HeaVen PosMen beFore i DisPPeaR agNNNNN..... TT__TT

BehiNd SmiLe~~

annyonGG~~~~

haizz~~~ rsnye lama gak tinggalkan blOg ni...coZ xde oRG naK shAre StOrY laTelY...so tU yg Xde pe Nak ShAre gaK...buT duN woRRy noW im BaCKKKKK~~~ 'I wiLL bAcK neOn DasHi NareUL chAjEuL GeoYA...'(kikikiki...siNG 2PM song........
hummmm....skRg ni mG lGs Xde MooD nK StDy Or nK FoKus kaT FiNaL ExaM...ArGGGgg!!! eVerYtHG i WaN to Do noW iS aBT mY DreAm!!!! i WaN gO KoreaN aNd cOntInue mA StDy ThEreeeee~~~ ga gO sHipuda~~~~ (T_T)

ha, ada KwN sY yG tnY knP sY nK sgT gI saNe...buT oN tHE tImE tHAn aSK mE abT ThT..i CaN onLy jSt SMILe...ga go shipudaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~ sy nK cB soMtHg NeW kaT saNe...On tHE saMe tImE...haiZZZZ..i CaNt shaRE abT mA rEaL reaSoN Here..I canT....buT i AlrdY shAre wiT soMeoNe....sy RiSaU pe yG sY pLan xKan Jd...sO bEttEr sY jGN shaRE kan...coZ Ada oRg cKp kaLAu RamaI yG taU pSL apa yG kiTe nK waT (WisH)...IanyA xkAn menJAdI...sO uShhhhh~~~

YeS!!! sOmEoNe WaN shAre StORy...i WiLL SHaRe iT to....hummmm~~~~ oK staRT!!!!!
diA NmPk sgT OK pd MatA sY...MC bKN soRg YG ada PRoB PON..buT siLencTly diA berbIsiK pD sY...'KalAU sy tRs SnYM mc Ni awK xdpT bAca Pe sy ngaH FkRkan aNd Rs kaN?' persOalaN tU mG UniK...So dIa bW sY satU tMpT yg JaUH dR oRG RamAI...KeadAan kaT siTu SdkT Gelap...Tp kaMi trS dudUk..mS keaDaaN sDkT snYp...diA muLa NanGiS...sY coNfiuS knP dia NangiS..sO sY tNy dia..diA sakIT oR adA pe2 Ke...diA cKp 'JgN tGoK Sy..sY xnAk oRg TgoK aiRmt ni...sB sY xNk oRg bC pE sBnrNye sY Rs..' mg menGejuTkan haL tu..BerMula SiTu..sY cB utK koNgsikaN pe Mslh dia...PerLahaN-lAhan Dia Mula bErsuaRa dan KOngsiKan...
diA cKp pd mAtA sEmuA oRg..diA adLh oRg yG pElIk snTs GembIRa daN SnTs bT oRg lEn GembiRa..Bg mRk seMUa melIhaT diA bersEdiH adLh PKr yG diLuaR jngKa...Jd dia TrS b'PurA sDmkN UntIL SkRg..pE yG bT dia SdH bT mS Tu AdLh KrN diA cB tOk KongSikN ProB dia mC oRg Len..bUt seMua tU xKan B'laKU bG dia...LBh M'yedIhkN bT diA bL orG yG diA suKA gaK xPrH tNy aNd cB nK fHM dia...daN dLm mS Yg sM diA t'PakSa biAkAn oRg diA suKa bT KptSn SdrI..diA taU dLm DuNia nI bYk Lg ciNta AnD kSH syG yG leN..bUt PrSaN yG wjD bT diA CuMa hY saTU...dia Ad cKp..YG kDg2 KalU Dia T'jAge dR TDo aNd taK B'jMp dGn oRg tu..diA rS PrsaN tu MyB dH HLg..But Bl diA jMP...PrSaN tu..Mc piSaU yG sDg m'BelAh JnTg diA..Tp dLM mS yG sM diA mSh CB sNYM pD oRg tu....diA cKp pRh diA T'LintAs b'BsK d'aTinYe...'TLo jGn SuKa OrG len skRg,SoK aNd aKn dtG' tP diA sDr diA xLeh waT mc Tu..diA xdE SpCL PowEr @ diA gK bKn oRg Yg b'Hak nk CKp OR waT mC tu...diA gK cKp skRg diA cB nK LeT iT Go oR aGn pRetEnd LikE sHe sOMeOne wiLL noT SuItaBlE InVoLveD iN loV..sY ad BrThu diA yG pKr mC tu PoN diA xLeh cKp anD waT kpTsn SndRi...SmU bKn KuaSa diA...So S'BeK sY aBiS cKp mC tu diA tB2 mnRK tGn SY dan B'kaTa yG diA b'Jnji diA xkN muLa SukA pD SoMeoNe LikE tHt agN aNd diA XkN suKe p doRg yG b'Ada d'sIne...hummm~~ mG agK pEliK jNji dia..BuT sy hy mmPu mNdgR jE tiMe tu...JnJi..hum..JnJi~~~

aRgggGG~~ mA HeAVen PoSmen whT i ShLd do??? JnJi ni...KaLaU diA xTunAiKN mYb aKN m'muDaRatKn diA Ke? @ diA akN t'MkN jnJi sDri??? haIzzzzz...iS haRd tO ThInK iT...sY rS KaLau diA nK LuPekaN hAl tU EvN suKaR waT dia...diA mG pTO waT gaK...HeaVn PoSmeN...diA mG stROng..aNd ChEerFUL..buT pE GuNe KalAu eVryThg jSt a LiE..caN u LeT iT b to mA HeaVn PosMen???? haiZZZ..sY xMmPu nK seTTleKN ni...aNd mY heaD reaLLy diZZY nOw...oH ya..mA HeaVn PoSmEn iF agN i nOt HerE..du u WiLLiNg tO waIt me LiKe tHS agN? i WiLL BrING u alOT a StOrY n We sOlVe iT tOgethr K....sO HeLP me...*cHu*

LoVe iS pUnishMent?

annYoNg~~~

im baCk...^_~ , ,byk cerita yg slu jd kat someone kan....and somtimes cite2 ni susah nak dijangkakan....wlu mcmn pon byk cite yg berlaku...kite ni sbg manusia kne ar bersabar or buat pe yg patut....nak gv up pon kne ar berpada-pada....hahahahaha~~
ummmm...hr ni pe yg sy nak smpaikan pd ma heaven posmen cite sal someone..cite die leh ar tahan tok sy kongsikan...ok i will start with....before tht...spnjg sy nak menaip ni...sy nak dgr lagu 2PM je...'i'll be back'..until sy leh hafal lagu ni lak...hohohohoho~~~~~

the story abt...pd satu mlm ms sy ngah syok lyn satu lagu ni...suddenly die dtg dan cb utk luahkan knp die nmpk mc sedih dan takut nak berdepan dgn org yg die suka....slm die idop dan kenal kehidupan, die sdr ada somthg yg die slu missed...bnd tu adalh prsaan die and pd sape die patut berikan....die ada citekan...first time die suka someone...and die tak prh tny or buat ape2 akn hal tu...and bila berdepan dgn org tu die selalu mulakan pertengkaran....but bila die pnt die berhenti and die pst akan rs sedih..tok die menarik lebih perhatian org tu die cb berpura spt die sgt mengilai org len....but everythg end....when kedua-dua tak tau akan pe yg patut buat...and die cuba jauh prsaan tu utk slmnya....stlh sekian lama, die jd buta utk menilai mn org yg betul die suka dan org yg akn buat pkr terbek tok die....eth knp die kdg2 berubah sprt org xde prsaan..bila tau ada org sukakan die, first die akn mendekati org terseebut dan kemudian die meninggalkan org tu..hummmm...mg agk kejam bila pkr melibatkan prsaan org len...dlm ms yg sm lelaki yg dia buat mc tu ms tunggu die dan byk berubah dr bek ke smkn teruk coz of her...haizzzzzz mg susah nak dikawal...and lepas dr tu....ssorg yg rpt dan selalu protect die dan snts cb buat die gembira dimana die adalh sprt abgnya sendiri..turut menyatakan prsaannya pd die..but semmgnye die tak leh terima keadaan tu coz...mrk dah slg kenal dr kecil dan slg mengenali ht budi msg2 mg dah mc sorg abg dan adk....dan hlgan dr keluarga mrk msh kekal berkawan....tp lakki tu mg berani wlpn mengambil ms yg lama...die menyatakan pe yg die pendam slm ni..wlpn sdkt ht die tersentuh die tahu prsaan tu hy wjd kat situ...tp bkn tok slmnya dan bkn gak bl die tak de....so skli lg die kcwkan prsaan org yg ingin menjaga ht die.....and the new one....die rs die sukekan someone...die gak cb tok mulakan semua dengan confused her own feeling...but she know evrythg will not change....agn die rs sgl prsaan die ni kdg2 tak pto wjd.....die rskan jg bl melihat org yg die suke bersm org len mg menyakitkan...but die bkn sape2 tok berhentikan hal tu...disebalik snyuman die...die tnp sdr menitiskan airmt....dan ms tu die ada berserah pd sgl takdir tok diri die.....kptsn yg die buat adlh tok berada jauh dr tmpt mn yg die berada kini...

perasaan ni mg susah tol nak kawal....dan heaven posmen...awk pon msh ada prsaan mc ni lg ke? gmbre, sedih, marah and more bile dgr smu cite sy??? pe patot sy bt yek????
kisah die ni dah mc satu punishment dlm hidup die...suke somone,mainkan somone..and suke somone blk...punishment die trg dan jelas dlm hidup die ni kan??? ma heaven posmen...wht we shld do ya??? i dun hv idea to say anythg...tp sy hrp kalo die rs berada tmpt len tu terbek bt die..fine....i hope ianya akn tercapai...oh ye, before die ada ckp...klo org terakhr yg die suke tu will hold die...myb die akn bt kptsn yg lbh bek...waaaaa...blh ke kite nak wat mc tu????

*sigh*...end~~~

tHe enD its Here!!!

annyoung!!!!

dah lama rsnye tak tulis mc ni..so now im back.....^_^
kali ni sy nak share kan story abt someone i knw, n again the story frm the someone i knw, i will not attch a name... mianhae.... ok we start now ye....coz myb ada nk tau sal pe lak story ni kan???? ok let's go!!!

dia merasakan kblkangan ni hati die sedikit keliru, di jg ada menyatakan kdg2 dia rs hati die mc menronta-ronta nak menangis, but dia tak bnrkan semua tu...sy menanyakan pd nye, knp....die kata, die risau....ms die tau ssorg yg die tak kan jumpa dan ingin ambl tau lg, org tu muncul, die tak pst sm ada die ni kejam atau apa, sb die tak mampu nak muncul ms org tu skt, cuma mampu die berkata "die pny sakit tak teruk sgt kan?"...dlm ms yg sm org yg rpt dgn org tu turut menyoalnye dgn plbg soaln antr nye... "knp ni? korg bergaduh lg? pkr kali ni tak leh nak berbaik lg ke?"...die tak menjawabnye sblknya menukarnya pd soalan len....disblk semua tu..tnp dei sdr, dia dah airmtnye menitis tnp kwlan, org disekeliling yg menyedari hal itu sering menanyanya mengapa....tp hy alasan lain yg mampu keluar dr mulutnya ketika itu...alsn pun die tak mampu nak berikan, saat tu die rs mc org bodo, knp die berkeadaan mc ni sdgkan die yg inginkan semua ni takkan berlaku lg.......dlm beberapa hr die cuba lupakan sglnya semula...die melakukan pkr diluar jangkaan die jg, memori ni hrs die padam agr tak ada sape yg susah krnnye....die cb keluar dr semua ini...even die cuba mencari org yg blh fhm hatinya ketika ini...sometimes bygan die terkeluar......die rs geram akn hal itu.........dan skli lg tnp die sangka...die tlh terjwb panggilan drg org tu....mendnegar suara org tu die hy mendiamkan diri, ht yg sebak hny mampu die tahan shj ketika itu....suara dia msh sama penuh dgn keegoaan org tu turut berkata pdnye "knp ko tak blh dtg jmp aku?"
sekali lg die hy mendiamkan diri shj......"ko tak blh ke berdepan dgn aku? ko pon rs kan perasaan tu kan?" mg soalannye sukar dijwb bt die....jd die mula bersuara dgn suatu soalan.... "knp aku nak wat semua tu...ko blk sini pon sb ko dah lupe kan aku kan??...ko lupe ke janji tu?!!!" soalan yg diajukan mg agr kasar, tp tu hy mulut yg berkata..disblknye....tak mungkin....kali pertama org tu menyebut nama die dgn penuh rdh diri dan org tu sekali lg bersuara.... "ko sihat ke? ko mc mn skrg?.....pe aktv ko lps ni?"...dia mula hairan dgn persoaln tu, tp die sdr mgkn org tu cb tdk mengeruhkan keadaan lg....suara yg tenang ketika menyoalkan hal tu pdnye..membuat die rs bersalah..tp die msh cuba tdk menjawabnye.... "aku busy la skrg..byk bnd nak buat...ada nak ckp pe2 lg ke?"..aku mendengar die mnrk nfs panjang dan die mula bersuara...."aku akn blk spt pe ko nak, dan aku hrp kita blh jd mc dulu...abg sepupu ko yg ego, degil dan hidup dlm dunia die....dan ko....kalau aku jmp ko...aku hrp ms tu ko dah ada org yg fhm ko dan mampu beri lebih dr aku...." nada suaranye agk berbeza ktk org tu berkata demikian, die jg tak pst mc mn perasaannya ms tu..sb dr kata-kata dan perilaku die ms tu, menunjukkan bkn spt org tu yg die knl sblm ni....dan sgl berakhir kat situ......die tanya pd sy pe yg blh die buat..dan ms tu die jg ada menyatakan... yg die inginkan memori tu semua takkan prh ada dlm hidup die..dan ucpn tu sbg pendorong die bt kali terakhir.....die jg hrp yg die takkan jmp lg org tu....sy tak pst knp kptsn mc tu yg keluar dr htnya..mgkn ada sstu yg tersirat msh skr bt die....bt anyway...die berharap yg die akn temui life baru dan org tu...org yg tak prh menitiskan airmt pd perempuan dgn mudah, dan org yg sentiasa cb protect die, dan jg org yg ssh nak luahkan isi ht sendiri....die akn temui jln yg betol....kalau btl la org tu adlh destiny buat die....pst mrk akn jmp simpulan terakhr tu nt...but die hrpkan org tu bkn la destiny nye....

ok..tu pe yg sy share kan....hummmmm.....ma heaven posmen..r u thr??? awk pon dgr cite ni kan? sy rs sy hny mampu tok mendgr je bt ms ni....heaven posmen....kalau sy adlh die, sy akn katakan...knp awk mc ni?! die mst org yg sgt bodo sb suka sy..(hahaha)...and sy juga akn katakan...awk pst berjaya jumpa kebahagian kat sana!!! awk pst akn hidup jauh lbh baik kat sana!!!!..... ^O^ ..mc ni kan nmpk mc lbh bek kan....O(^_^O)*oishh,oishhhhhh* ma heaven posmen, die hrp die org tu bkn destiny nye...so tu the end la kan? so, end kan la ye..dan kalau dorg jmpe pon sy hrp diorg akn mmpny hbgn yg lbh bek..mc ms sktk dulu..Ok ^_~
so, klo ma heaven posmen bc ni....mrm kita sm2 berusaha ye..dan your duty like usually...help me if u hv a free time.. *chu*

iF u DoiNg...

oN the raining morning...i got somthing confess in my heart....i keep thinking abt tht to..why?what?.....i no have clue....but what im really know, on that time,my mind keep playing a same memory...wah!!! i can't avoid it to, i know, my housemate talk back abt me...she the big sis in the house but didnt act like she shld be...and the one who be her partne who listen everythg abt that and i belived the person myb will talk somthg to....even i didnt care abt u @ whtevr...the secret btw us, i keep it n i wan u know, since the day i try to forget u,i never try to talk back to u or say everythg to another person, how much it pain to me, i just keep it alone, i try hard didnt tell @ share it wit someone...even how mny person beside me, i never talk bad @ story abt u anymore....and everytm u sent me mssge abt u go somewhr @ myb need to go bck to u hometwn, i jst let another person know it to, coz i dun wan answer anythg to another person n if i keep talk it myb will be somthg big n anothr person keep talking.....so i stop it.......on tht time to, i try to talk wit myslf who i call heaven posmen, which side alwys be the best listener......
how much i change since i knw u, i did not notice it, n how much i change to anothr side since i gv up on u...i dunno to...but why???? the way i choose....gv some effect to me now....n i cant cry for the somthg i alrdy hold it now...n one more thing i realize abt myslf now..im change n be the person who make anothr person regret n playing wit they heart n emotional.....yup, i can enjoy for the succes but i cant do anythg for the person............wht i hope to u now, please..even how, dun talk back abt me, n if u heard someone talk abt me, please stop it, let them stop...coz im alrdy do tht to u now....it fair rite if u doing somethg like tht to rite....tq if u doing tht aftr all...why i wrote it, coz my heaven posmen...can't do tht anymore....so please....to my SF

ThE naMe i Can'T sAy

spt biasa, byk pkr yg ssorg tak prh dpt tunaikan dgn sempurna, and myb ada sstgh je yg mencapainya...so menjadi kebiasaan bg yg tak dpt mencapainya menukarkan keinginan tu kpd pkr yg baru....

posmen heaven....mc sy selalu nyatakan yg khdpn ni bknnye mudah utk dilaksanakan dgn smprn dan sy juga ssorg yg selalu gagal nk smprnakan....mc2 sy cuba nak wat dan smprnkan..just segelintir je yg mampu sy laksanakan...but yg len...semua mengecewakan...but..u never grant my wish agn my posmen heaven.....wht i wan is...i hope i can fly and see evrythg...stop joking abt if i wan fly i shld take a flight...it not wht i wan...i jst hope i can fly freely and see wht i wan see from above....and hope i can protect the person i care....yup...maybe somtimes pe yg sy nak ni mc kelakar dan mungkin terlalu kebudakan..but sy still berharap dpt buat mc tu.....
oh ye, posmen heaven....mulai hr ni org yg sy suka dan cintai adlh kamu....so sy hrp awk akn protect sy ye....Q(^_^Q)!!!

i waN TO kNoW....

my hearts stop, i cant breathing anymore....coz u leaving me.....

some word i heard make me think it alot...hummmmm, how it really feel? aftr a while ago..i think it back...wht really i feel inside???? that really love? or just feeling of take care????? i wonder....if i cant do anything right now wht i shld do??????

my heaven posmen.....do u know wht inside my heart acctually??? i wan to know....

love? somtimes i ask myself...what kind of love i really hv right now...for me, wht i know, my love just for my friend and my lovely family(kikikikiki)....yup i can't deny it, where i really love to be with my friend..as i can say...my friend is a everything to me....usually, my boy friend really can understanding me easily than my girl friend...i didn't mean to say that i didnt like all my girl friend....im really love all my girl friend deeply..coz i can understnd all they feeling,i like heard everything they wan told me, i will be a good listener towards them, coz girl really hope they have someone can share everythin than they own special boyfriend(hahahaha), so tht's why i still feel tht they still need me as they own friend...n someone can give her support....^_^
oh ya,abt my boy friend, myb they think the way i talk,walk and my attitude, sometime its didnt same as a another girl....i mean the girl who can speak nice, polite and still can serve than as a girl T_T...but its didnt mean i should sad abt tht, acctually i lil bit happy abt tht, coz i can easily communicate with guy friendly and i can know what kind a guy like, didnt like..n everything..yup, im really involved in my boy friend activities and the way they think abt something...ummm, tht's why, im easily can free to talk and free to do everything in front my boy friend.....O(^_^O)

because of that, some of my boy friend worry alot abt how i can fall in love with some other guy one day, if my behavior like that?...but i still didnt think abt to fall in love easily like that...my heart to love someone deeply like that myb alrdy close...(hohohohoho)..coz love to someone deply like that just can gv u strunggle, hurt and worry...so why i should let my emotion be like tht????!!! oh noooooo~~~~~~ i still wan a freedom....but its ok if u wan me as a friend....d(^_^)b

love.love,love...ummmm, myb its a sound great to a someone and someone will imaging anything like a fairy tales where the prince and the princess can dance together,and will protect each other..eeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~~ yupp..to imaging it with someone i like such as, Jung yunho and another korean star or japaness star,ummm its ok, but really to think abt that to another person....haizzzz...i can't...sometimes my friend ask me, why i didnt wan be in love? do u have nightmare abt love story? do u hate guy? do u love girl? do u really need a rich guy only? and so on....i just can smile and pretend that everything is right....what i should do?..but i think if i fall in love , i will be shy, didnt much talk and just listen he...that what i think....myb..but i really dont wan be like that..its enough if someone know me as who i am...where he know the way i laugh,sad, and happy...hahahaha
but the person like that really exist in the world anymore??hummmmm.....dunno....so just keep belived on yourself ok....and to all my friend...i will let all the love between us will

im wan To Say....

to my heaven posmen......
thanks to help me find my happiness way, i didn't know, which the way i choice its the wan i should hold? or just for a while....i hope i will never erase them easily..even just can smile for a while with them like this....help me to hold everything until i close my eyes one day.....

the love i have btw them, its enough for me right now, coz i scared to find another love from other person and other way, so if someone can open my heart back to love someone, i think the person really amazing...hahahahaha....so work hard ya!!!

chingu, neomu kamsahamnida, to be here with me....kamsahamnida~~~~~

FLyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~

i love the way i stand now, coz lil bit i can run,walk, laugh n smile alot...i didnt feel the strunggle wht i feel before...i dunno, who, when n where i realize all the thing come to me....n to my family..thanks alot who alwys gv me support until i can stand like ths...kikikikikiki....

to all my prenz i know..tq, coz of u, i learn evrythg now....i know how to show my feeling.... so i wan say to u, can u feel my heart bit?(hahahahaha)

i think, i can stay in the situation i hv now....its enough now, if i can undrstnd them rite? coz i knw who thr r......even behind thm i can't c wht thy hide...but i feel peace to stand like now......

ring ding dong,ring ding dong....dunno wht to write now...so i end here......!!!

wings...i need...

what i think right now? what i really wan? that im really happy now?....so many question i wan ask myself now, im wonder, why im like that!!!!!, im smile wen i wan and i keep talking abt anything as i wan, and i feel horrible inside wen everything pass....im really wan cry now, but im dunno, since wen my tears stop from falling again, what i can do now, just let my temper conquer myslf like a crazy, i lost my temper even for a small matters somtimes...dunno which way i should choice now...my heart full with hatred feeling....argggggg!!!! i dunno, dunno...i really think wan to run as far as i can and avoid everyone i knw....
my heaven posmen, that i can return my time?????, i wish to go back the time im at scool will my old friend....ummm..but still have worse memory right??? so better if i can return the time, i wan back to the time i was 7...n i wan fix everything i make mistake n until i can b someone more better than now.....

why i cant fly???? my heaven posmen, tht u have a wing? if ya, can u let me borrow it for a while? or can u bring me? we fly together to the way u wan....hummm...its that ok????

why??? im really far from what i am before? the person who consider abt another person life thn her slf...whr r u?? if im really far from that, i think i can answer it abt im really can b alone one day....

where i am...

to my heaven posmen.....
lately i realize something wrong with me....im like lost something where i can't explain with words...but i know i lost it....why? since when?
yup myb on the time i can find my friend back or myb on the time i can say my friend name bck....yup...im the person who always need waiting for somthing or hoped...why im like ths..i really dunno why....day by day...n when everything come back normal n everything i waiting back...i can take a long breath n smile...but...why...i can't feel something i always feel before..wht i mean..the happiness, the smile,n the sadness...i lil bit confius right now..why????
im just smile when i think the situation wan im smile n laugh n i just can feel sad inside my heart..but my tears stop falling n my heart can't say anything to me anymore..why???

first time i heard abt my friend who i really miss n who i can't find by myslf i feel happy,n my heart can't stop from told me that i shld meet my friend...n i wan hold my friend tightly n i shld never lost my friend again...but after i meet my friend...i dunno why i can't say anything to my friend who i miss alot, i can't say my friend name to...i dunno what i shld do to...im blank....n my friend...non-stop blame on me...my friend told me,that im a bad friend to her,she told me i never try find her n never try contact with her anymore...when i heard everything from her mouth..i blank...my tears...again stop..n my heart again dun told me anything....i can't touch her to...but what i can do on that time...i just can see her face n heard a good news since i can't find her.....after we meet, i ask her phone no,she give me..but what i promise to her,to contact or text her...i can't do it..i dunno why...but what i know on that time..im afraid from heard she call me someone who always forget abt her...im afraid if she get alot hurt from heard my voice n anything i do....im afraid lost her again....until now...i dunno wht i shld do...

and im nearly forget abt someone who im waiting from heard try to talk to me and forget abt afraid feeling towards me...she my friend to....im waiting, n waiting for the day..but i knw nothing will change if i didnt do something...i make all thing whr she shld hate me...but she didnt give any respond to...why?
i dunno why i will sad n cry alone everytime she fall asleep before me...i watch her face secretly n im ask myslf on tht time..why im always be cruel towards her? wht thing i still not satisfyd in her life?...but my answer nothg....yup, i know mylf n her obvsly dffrnt...coz im type person always need someone beside me n we each other give support...the moments like that can make me more comfortable...but i knw her life not like tht...she still think abt another thing in her life...so sometimes i feel like im still alone...n im realized if she with me myb she will get alot scar...im worry....so on tht time i think i shld hate her n make her far from me, n forget everything abt me.....but....i can't do it..n she to....i try to pretend tht im ok..but i knw i can't...until she come to me n forget abt afraid to face me anymore...she try slow talk to me...yup,on the time,i told my heart...'tht i wan u do..but why need take a long time like ths?...but its ok,coz finally u dare to come n face me right..'

but...my heaven posmen, i think i lost my feeling now....i can't feel the feeling on the time i feel hard to face my friend,the moments i smile bcoz of them, n feel sad bcoz we in trouble or anything...why? my tears...really dunno wht kind situation shld it fall...why on the time i heard my friend sad story i can't feel it? n why the feeling to protect each other never exist in my heart now? n why everytime i see all my friend pic i cant smile or cant feel any feeling? even i can talk with her back...why i feel like it just a something normal? n wen i heard the song where i always feel like to cry i can't feel it now even repetly i heard? why everytime i see all my friend i just can follow thy step n wht thy wan? why i easily get temper towards them when i think thy do something not right towards me? coz i knw im not a kind person who easily get temper towards my friend even thy try to betryd me...why? n why i feel like i didnt interested in thy life anymore like wht thy do or who thy meet? n why wen i heard thy talk with another thy own friend i not feel jealous like before? n why i always talk everything just wen all my friend fall asleep...n i always talk with a stuff who can't give any respond towards me??? n wen i have a problem n something i can't settle it,why i just keep silence n pretend like nothing happend?
heaven posmen...where i am???where my soul? wht happend to me??? tht wht i can explain to u now...if u found myslf..can u return it to me?...n if my friend knw abt tht can u explain to them?

my heaven posmen....can u take care of my friend for a while now? n tell me wht i shld do n respond towards thm? i worry if one day i really cant find myslf.....oh ya,can u teach me how to say sorry and thank u agn..humm....n i hope i can hold them back like who i am before...

my heaven posmen...u can heard everything i told u to right?....i hate to wait agn..i hate the words of wait...mianhae...so don't let me wait agn....

^_^

life memang somthing yg kita tak pernah jangkakan...bg saya,saya pernah merasakan ingin berputus asa dgn kehidupan ni,but something membuka mata saya utk trs berada sampai skrg,how miracle its is after im relize it...
the miracle will come wen we feel kehidupan ni sgt bermakna dgn dugaan,ummm, dgn mg dtg bukan skli but mungkin berulang kali and kdg kala benda yg sama,so bergantung kpd ketahanan diri ssorg ketika menghadapi pkr tu....
bg saya dah cukup bermakne bila saya sdr kkwan saya and the important one,my family, everytime open my eyes, n can see each one from them,make me smile alot,n my morning will be brightly like i never thought...kikikikiki
saya sedar yg saya org yg cuai,coz everything saya try pegang pada org yg saya belived abd wan hold until the end,always something will blocking us,but saya sbnrnya bknlah org yg senang give up easily..even saya bnyk kali hampir give up bila mrk asyik terlepas,so before tears fall down, saya trs sedar apa yg patut yg saya buat...ummm, i thought ths a last stupid thing i will do to..but seriously saya pernah terfikir if ths time will same and nothing will change,saya akan lupakan semuanya and will change cara saya berkawan....
even saya tak mampu nak buat perkara mc tu saya kena buat one day kan????
how stupid im something coz im realize to tht im kind a person who always need someone hold me,and always in troubel coz of that to...

so apa yg saya boleh katakan....'i am who i am'...mian to the person always got alot painess coz of me...mian...

tuRn aRounD

kisah yg ingin saya kongsikan kali ni adalah sebuah kisah yg saya pernah dengari dari seseorang...saya teringat akan kisah ni lepas saya terdengar sebuah lagu.. ^__^
kehidupan manusia ni memnag sukar untuk kita jangka apa yg bkl berlaku, dan juga yg sudah berlaku...ok saya akan kongsikan sekarang...

kisahnya mengenai seorang gadis dengan seseorang yg dia kenal sejak dr kecil, tp d'sebabkan dia tlh menganggap org tersebut spt abng atau org yg tdk mgkn dia impikan sbg org yg patut dia suka...beberapa thn berlalu hbgn mrk msh sm,cuma lyn org tersebut mula b'rubah,lynannya agk kasar bg dirinya,tp dia hny mampu menerimanya shj tnp mempersoalkannya krn dia thu akbtnya jk dia m'persoalkan hal tsbt.umur dan p'watakan diri msg2 mula berubah dgn kehidupan yg mrk sm2 cipta,tp mrk lupa yg mrk pasti akn bertemu kmbli krn org trsbt tdk akn prnh memberikan khdpn yg sng padanya..(itu apa yg dia fkrkn),stp kali bertemu mrk akan bergaduh wlpn hy perkara yg kecil..tp mrk msh ingin mnrskan hbgn sedemikian.....
tp pd satu hr,keadaan mula berubah,apbl org tsbt menyatakan pkr yg tak prnh disangkakan olh dia dan pkr yg dia tak mgkn lakukan....apbl itu brelaku dia lgs tdk prh memberikan jwpn yg ikhls d'hati dia..org tsbt jg ada menanyakan apa dia rasa slm ini..dia hy diam, armt mula ingin keluar tp dia menahannya ketika itu...dan dia mula bersuara tnp mempedulikan soalan tersebut...
'prg jauh dr sini...jgn tinggal kat sini kalau tu yg kau nak tny!!!'
hny tu yg mampu dikatakannya....dan dia mula melangkah ketika itu, org tersebut cuba memberhentikan lgkhnya, org tu menarik tangan dia tp dia meronta agr d'lepaskan...org tersebut turut m'pny sikap degilnya yg jelas,dia tdk mahu mlpskannya,tp org tu hny berdiri dan membiarkan dia meronta,melihat keadaan trsbt dia kmbl diam,dan dia hny mendengar org trsbt menanyakan soalan 'knp?!!',saat itu dia msh tdk mnjwbnya...dia trt tdk memandang pdnya... 'jgn pks diri kalau kita tak mampu buat...'..dengan perlahan dia dpt rskan genggaman mula d'lepaskan dan sekali lagi dia mendengar kata-kata terakhir dr mulut org trsbt...
'aku akn prg jauh mc kau nak..but kalau aku masih tak kmbli sini..tu sb aku msh tak blh lupa kata-kata aku ni...dan aku nak kau yg dtg cari aku..aku pst kau tak prnh menyesal dgn pe kau ckp kan...sb kau mg mc ni....kau ada bnd yg slu kau tak settlekan lagi...'
dia segera prg tnp m'lihat org tersebut dan dia sndr tak pasti berapa byk armt dia yg berjaya keluar,100,200,300 @ mungkin 1000 kali dia menitiskannya.
org trsbt pergi sehari slps ulgthnnya,tiada org yg mengiringinya,ms tu dia juga sdg berseronok dgn rkn2nya utk lupakan apa yg jd...tp dia tahu,ms tu dia nk sgt prg dan jumpa dan katakan apa yg dia patut beritahu...tp tak...tu dia tak mampu buat..utk menoleh pd org tersebut pun dia tak mampu..knp???....dia sendiri keliru knp dia tak mampu hy utk menoleh...

shg kini dia cb hidup dlm dunianya..dia cipta ruang utk diri dia sbnr...dan sdkt demi sdkt dia mgkn berjaya lakukan...tp mgkn tak sepenuhnya....dia rs,knp dia tak ckp 'jgn prg' pd org tu kalau dia rs mc tu...sb satu je alsn dia...dia rs dia mgkn akn berhentikan org tu kalau dia ckp mc tu dan mgkn ad hati yg akn lg trk hancur ms tu......

cite dr dia ni mg betol2 mc lagu saya dengar sebenarnya..maaf la kalau saya kongsikan kisah ni, but don't worry nama saya tak gunakan ok...hope ada jln penyelesaian buat semua ni...
heaven posmen..ummm,awak pun dengar cerita ni kan? so apa yg saya blh mintak awak tolong jst kalau dia berpeluang jmp org tu blk,hrp dia citekan hal sbnrkan...tp betol ke org tu tak nak blk lg??? mgkn dia akn kmbli kan,tp ms dia blk ht dia mc mana? pst dia msh terbuka utk semua tu kan?..sb kata-kata hy kata-kata...dia tak blh lupakan dia mc tu je, pst org tu tipu kan?....so apa saya hrp,org tu akn dgr penjelasan sbnr dan dia akn fhm dan dia tak mrh pd dia lagi.. *hope*

if we don't start with lie...

menipu..ditipu...2 pkr yg tak prnh dlm khdpn ssorg yg digelar manusia....sy prnh terfikir,ada ke tmpt yg tak kan berlaku 2 perkara ni??...tp pst tak de kan...
ada yg m'rasakan kehidupan tnp penipuan bknlah nikmat gidup sbg manusia yg sbnr,dan ada juga yg m'rasakan,penipuan ini satu kesalahan yg bsr dan sukar d'terima olhnye shg bila2...
topik ni ingatkan sy pd satu kisah....

pd satu masa dulu, ada sorg gds yg mmpny khdpn yg m'bosankan..dia m'rasakan khdpnnye smkn m'bosankan bila dia tmt bljr, jd dia mula m'libatkan dirinya dlm dunia cyber,d'mn plbg pkr yg blh dia lakukan.....dia m'layari tmpt d'mana dia blh m'dptkan kwn baru...tp dlm ms yg sm,identiti dirinya yg sbnr m'yukarkan dia m'dpt ramai kwn, jd dia m'ambl kptsn utk tkr ID dia kpd jantina len.s'baik dia bt sdmkian,brulah dia mdpt kenalan bru yg lbh ramai...tp pd satu hr,dia tlh d'takdr b'temu dgn ssorg, dia bknlan dan msh mengunakkan ID sbg jantina len....
stlh hmpr sthn bkwn,dia mula sdr yg kwn kenalann' itu jjr dan srng b'kongsi apa sj yg ingin d'kongsi....si gds tau kwnnya itu adalh m'pny ID yg sm dgn dirinya yg sbnr...dia mula rs bslh dan berniat utk trskan shj sbg diri kwn chatting dia kenal...tp si gds m'rskan penipuan itu smkn trk,wlpn mrk tdk prh bertemu dan bersua...tp melalui perbualan dan sgl ksh khdpn kwn chattingnya itu, dia sdr ceritanya bnr,tp dia...tdk...hny penipuan..smkn brt dia rs utk trskn prshbtn mrk disitu...smkn bsr penipuan yg d'lakukannya....utk tdk m'lukakan mn2 phk, si gds m'ambl kptsn utk memberhentikan lakonan sbg ID yg dikenali olh kwnnya itu dgn m'wjdkan perselisihan dan keadaan yg agk tegang...si gds tau kwnnya sgt mrh dan saat itu dia berhdpan dgn komputernya dgn airmt...ms tu,si gds hny mngatakan *pabo*,wlpn htnya brt utk m'gatakan hal sbnr,tp dia tahu kalau ID sbnrnya dktahui,keadaan in mgkn akn m'lukakan htnya dgn teruk....pshbtan itu musnah ats kecuian dan penipuan yg wjd atr mrk...shg kini si gds d'belenggu rs b'salah pada kwnnya dan memikirkan...*kalau ada prince yg bek, sy akn htrkan pd awk,even prince tu adlh org yg sy suka...*

ksh ni mg sdh lama tmt..tp ati gds tu msh tenangkah?? apa yg saya tahu shg kini dia m'rasakan,jika ada lah prince tu, dia akn htr pd kwnnya dan dia akn wjd sbg kwn terbek bt kwn chattingnya itu....

smmgnya...penipuan yg wjd takkan mampu selesaikan sglnya...

posmen heaven: blh tak htrkan prince yg akn jaga dia?? sy bt bg phk gds yg rs b'slh...huh?...blhkan???

green RoSe

someone told me, whr if i can get green rose i will got eternel life espcly with someone we love....
hummm..i hope green rose really exist now, coz d person who told me abt green rose, say the green rose just exist at a heaven..ummmmmmm...i dunno....

to my heaven posmen, could get the flower for me???? even u just a posmen, but could u do tht to me????

i wan my eternal life with my family,my friends n person i like n love....

i really love have a friends, whr i can share my story n anythg...i will never b sad inside them...smile,smile n smile....
but im afraid when my friend wan leave me, n say "we should stop b friend" @ "i hv another thing to do n care than u"

tht thy knw my real feeling as thy friend???
ummm, who i knw he/she as my friend i will try hold it until the end, n i will take care thy as i can....but why??? why somtimes thy can't feel my true meaning towards thm....yup i, i knw, who b my friend..alwys hv alot strunggle right?..but tht i can do to get close with u my friend....i dunno how to show my real feeling..i can't....but wht i alrdy do to u all..tht the way my love....mianhae(sorry)

now i got confius towards my feeling abt my friend...shld i b alone n jst care abt myslf @ still car eabt thm..i scary,lonely n sad....

Annyoung!!!

ummmm...finally i made my blog...so everyone if hv a time enjoy my blog especially my friendSSSS....