mY haRd daY!!!

annYoNg!!!
day by day aLreaDy pAst...buT i'M stiLL HeRe n DoiNg a saMe thiNg in my LifE...bE LoNeLy in OnE siDe...ReaLLY haRd foR me..coZ i'M noT a TyPe whO caN siT quiETLy iN oNe PLaCe aT LeasT LeT mE doiNg sOmEtHinG LiKE a DRaWiNg....seKaraNg sY terFiKir anD terTanYa whT eVerYoNE do? buT i'M suDdeNLy aNsWeriNg by myseLf...myB aDa anTarA Mereka yG sEdanG GemBirA Or BerSediH oN thiS tiMe riGhT?
haiss...kenApALaH sY raSaKan SekranG ni seMakiNg SukaR toK sY LaLu...i'M reaLLy waN goiNg sTudY agaiN!!! coZ EvErthiNg aFtEr WE doNe fRoM sTuDy...iT juST aLL abOuT MoNeY...eVerY waY,eVerYday MonEy! MoNeY! MoNey!!!....i dUnno wHaT kiNd a JoB sTuiaBLe fOR mE tO...buT iN tHe BoTToM oF mY hEarT..i'M reaLLy EnJoYing wEn i CaN EdiT sOmeThiNg..LiKe maKinG a ViDeo anD ediTiNg sOme piC!!! reaLLy AweSoMe!!! n LaTely i'M foUnD nEw attraction doiNg suBtiTLe fOR a SoME viDeO!!!!....buT i DuNNo hoW i caN reaLLy iNvoLvEd iN thiS fiELD..iF i caN coNtiNue mY sTudy aGaiN i HoPe i caN sTuDy aBoUt thiS fiELd..i WaN KnOw aLoT abOuT tHiS fiELd..coZ wEn i DoiNg EdiTiNg ViDeo oR doiNg maKe a SubTiTLe foR a soMe ViDeo i sEE a GLow..thAt ThE haPPiNess GLow anD maKe mE knOw mY liFe goaLs...apaRt frOm thaT..iM aLsO EnJoyiNG iN wRiTinG soMe sToRy..i haVe aLoT stOrY i'M doNe WriTiNg...buT i UsuaLLy LoSe tHe waY wHere i caN shaRe tHe sToRy coZ i'M reaLLy wOrrY iF soMeoNe ThinK tHe sToRy BoRed oR soMethiNg a uSelEss stOry oR maYbe doN'T hv aNyoN eto Read iT...im ReaLLy laCk a Confident to....
i kNoW i duN hV aLoT PerSoN suPPorT Me iN whaT im Interested doiNg noW..oR maYbE soMe oF thEM noT eVeN kNoW it. soMetiMes i FeeL LiKe whaT iM iNterested in juSt iM DreaMinG aboUt...i neaRlY giVe uP wEn i thiNk abOuT otHer pErsOn cRiticize abOuT iM inTerested abOut noW...buT wEn i oPeN mY LaPPy i thiNk i ReaLLy can't easiLy giVe up iN thiS fieLd to...wAaaaa!!!! tHat'S whY, i FeeL mY LiFe it's GoiNg hard!!!! every tiMes i oPeN mY LaPPy it saMe LiKe a sonG NaTaNa( aPpear oSt oF SeCreT gaRden) coMe iN mY miNd..sO hoW i caN leT oFf oF EveryThiNg!!!!!! oN thiS mOMenT i DuNNO wiTh whO i waN taLk anD gV Me a advice abOuT whaT i ShoULd do noW....aND i KnoW, iF soMeoNe doinG soMethiNg wiThoUt a bLeesiNg fRoM presEnT, it wiLL noT suCceeds!!!

hOw To maKe mY LiFe noT haRd aNYmoRe!!!!